Today I had the random thought that for Thanksgiving this year.... I wish I had the financial flexibility to order a plane ticket for two. Do they serve Roasted Turkey & Mashed ‘Taters in Belize? I don’t know? Cold here. Hot there. Duh.
Expectations. That is what the Holidays are. Expectations of “Family”. I have learned that “Family” is what you make… not what you are necessarily Given. Or Maybe it IS. DAMMIT.
My last ‘ Big Family Occasion” with my Family was a Reunion. No One should be subjected to a Normal Reunion. Let alone one with MY family. Unless they can afford the Therapy Expenses that come with it.
The day before ‘our’ Reunion my Uncle Charles turned Blue and died on my Mothers couch.
My Aunt came out of the kitchen and looked at him and said, “Ummm, How long has he NOT been snoring?”.
Really Boys?…. You did NOT notice he was no longer watching the Football Game… Helllooooooo… Jeeeezuz.
His final Urination on my Mothers leather sofa becoming another reason for her to have an excuse to Self Medicate on his left over Narcotics for the remaining "official" time of the Family Reunion.... while making a one time speedy trip to Pier One to put a new couch on hold.
I’d have done the same thing…. But we were all given instructions of Sobriety on the Invitation. NO Alcohol. Due largely to the Families Christianity and AA beliefs. Damn our luck. It was first come and first serve on the Oxycotin…..
I hope that Charles is sitting somewhere in Heaven … with his size Bazillion Cowboy Boots On… and is smiling because he missed the REST of the Reunion. Or maybe he‘s smiling because … He now has the cure for cancer… and can really fix a jet airplane on the phone. Or maybe he's smiling because he can eat all the Roasted Turkey Skin off the Turkey and NO ONE will judge him.
Regardless, for whatever reason……….. Tonight………. I’m thinking’ of Uncle Charles… and the laughter that he left us with.
Tomorrow. I will share Thanksgiving with The love of My Life and the child who has become my ‘other’ child…. Kaden. We… Three… are a Family tomorrow.
Laughter. Love. That is what I want for my LIFE.
- SuzyQ
- Just LIVE.LOVE.BE. Everything else around you will evolve and change whether you ride the river or fight it and swim upstream. The only difference is how tired you'll be when you come to the end. That’s what this Blog is about. My journey and what I have and have NOT learned along the way.
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